You've reaching the webpages for Richard Williams at my ISP.
                               you can reach me at rmwilliamsjr@gmail.com
                                  i'm currently (27 Oct 06) working through some issues and i've taken down the webpages as a result.

                            it's June 2007 now. I see a need to explain things.
                            During the delivery of my research on the ministry of mercy last fall, i became painfully aware of how important  the call
                            to teach is, especially within the walls of the church. I simply felt inadequate to the task at hand and realized that i really had
                            no reason to be in front of a classroom of people. I finished the class on the basis of it being a committment, a promise, but i was
                            unable to write the webpages for the talks as i had been doing.

                            i took the next several months to think about, consider and to pray about the assorted issues. I've concluded that my original feelings                               were right and that i do not have any call to teach and no reason to be in front of a class. here is what i wrote to the Sunday School                                     committee:
                            blog entry on the topic
                           
                            as a conclusion i wrote:

so, i've reconsidered the issues as was requested. i don't feel any call to teach, and a strong adversion to being referred to as a teacher or any kind of authority at all, i shudder when i hear such things. i learned from the experience, the most important thing was that i don't belong there in that role. i was mildly surprised to hear myself say that Westminster was a mistake, i just i really didn't want to admit it. but if it was then things fall into place a bit better. LaVitaHouse is a lot less tramatic for me, perhaps a reel spiritually sunday afternoon discussion group would work and not set off all the warning bells i hear in my head during Sunday School "teaching". In any case, i have enough confidence that this is the way to go that i will start to answer people's inquiries about "when is your next class?"- - with a direct answer that i don't expect there to be anymore as i am not called to teach.

i wrote this about a month ago. it really forms the conclusion to this line of reasoning.
so if you still would like to read some of my writings, i've put them back online. However please be aware that i make no claims but that i have researched and studied the issues the best i know how and are offering these not as teaching of any kind but as simply sharing the products of my time spent reading.

my home page's new address

please do not ask me to defend or justify anything that i say that might be contradictory to the stand of my church or of my Pastor. I am just a student, look elsewhere for someone who can speak with the authority of a real teacher. thanks for understanding my position and i do hope something i've spent so much time and effort on will prove of value to you.         

I appreciate the opportunities that these 3 Sunday School classes afforded me. A need driven learning curve is substantially different and in some important ways better than that desire driven one i am usually a part of. I don't think that people made an error letting me do these things, it was important to learn the lessons that i did. That teaching is a noble and important calling, that it is a difficult and surprisingly hard task, that it requires above all else, the gifts and the calling of a teacher. I like the chinese culture and it's high esteem for teachers, i now appreciate the task far more than i often did when sitting in the rows of chairs. To those who are teachers i can confide that i am a bit jealous, for God has called you to a very important task, give it your best effort.

thanks for the opportunity to share some important thoughts.
and thanks to those at RMPCA that gave me a chance to stand in front and learn some important lessons of my own.
i am sure that those standing in front learn far more than those in the chairs.
and it is a bit sad to have learned my place. i suppose i would have aspired to more if i had been given the prerequisites.

rmwilliamsjr